Goodbye 2012

It is the last day of 2012. I am away from the bustling KL and spending time all alone with no kids. After a busy month of December with classes, kenduris and activities, I managed to run away for a quick retreat.

2012... A year full with unexpected events and a bit of travelling.... Had the opportunity to travel and spending my time with kids. We enjoyed our holiday especially to Down Under. We spent some quality time when we were there and we planned to go again... But maybe elsewhere.

I wish 2013 would be good to me and maybe find myself a wonderful companion. As I am approaching into my fifth year  of 'singlehood', perhaps it's high time for me to settle down if I could find my perfect match. Fat chance!!! Not actually searching and not desperate either.... Don't want o be tied down and not able to move freely...

2013 would be a busy year too. Had my schedule prepared and packed with classes and travelling. As Sarah is embarking into secondary school, it would be a new routine for us. I need to juggle my time and for the first month at least, I need to be on call if Sarah could not adapt to the new school. I pray that  it would be smooth sailing for Sarah....

Goodbye 2012... Welcome 2013... Happy New Year, everyone!

The truth - finally revealed

In an unexpected twist, I finally found out the truth about A - his true self and his unlawful behavior during our marriage. Even though a bit late as we are already separated; thus it is good to know the truth. I felt relieved as I did the right decision of separating and to endure more pain and bullshit from him is not worth it. But on the other hand I was disappointed for his action towards us during the 19 years tenure.... He never felt guilty for behaving like he did and after 23 years knowing him, I realized that he had never changed. His portrayal as a good man and husband could fool anybody and I protected him during my tenure.... Eventually after years of divorce, the 19 years were all deceit. Thank God I didn't wait longer as I can imagine what's like if I knew the truth during my tenure... How crush would I be? How crazy could I become? And I don't think I want to know....