Outing - Genting Highlands June 16, 2010

We took the bus ride to Genting Highlands at 9 am. By 10.30 am, we were already at the Outdoor Theme Park. The weather was cooling and just right. What a relief! Away from the hot weather down in KL. The kids had a jolly time at the park riding the roller-coasters and playing games... I had to buy at least RM130 worth of tokens.... And we came back with a bid red dragon, a green frog and a bear... They all belonged to Sarah. We were carrying those animals back in the bus... We took the 5 pm bus back to KL. By 7 pm, we were already home.

For all I know, we had GREAT FUN together! Eventhough its near to our house but the weather made a lot of difference. It is as though we were overseas! We plan to go again to Genting. Will try to find time so that we can have fun together and can cherish the moments that we have.... Whenever we see the animals we brought back, we can still remember our time there. I love spending time with the kids eventhough I have to cough up money.... They are all worth it!!

Praying for a BIG STOP!

I dont understand why he could not stop harrassing us. First me, then now the kids. Sending lengthy sms to us and provoking us. He kept on blaberring that the kids are not worthy. The thing is he is the one who is not deserving.

I pray that he will stop provoking us. Just face the fact and let us live our lives happily and peacefully. Its been over a year and dont let me blow my top. I can feel my temperature rising and whistling in my ears!

My Lost Feelings

I woke up this morning feeling regret. I dont know what happened in my dream but the feelings were overwhelming. I regretted my actions that I did 21 years ago. It happened in June 1989. Why didnt anyone stopped me from making the worst mistake in my life? How could I be fooled? Why didnt I thought of the consequences?

I am full of regrets. I know nothing could change the past but how I wished I could just turn back the time. I had so much in life happening at that time but I decided to end it just to please another person.. And now I regret.... All I wanted now is to let it go and start a new life, far away from all. Dont want to think what had happened and live life to the fullest.

It would be difficult to start all over again at this age but I will try to put the past behind me and relive my life with whatever thats left and with whoever I want....

Looking forward...

I am looking forward for a better life; not that my current life is not good. As my court date will start end of June, I look forward for the end of the trial. Whatever the outcome, at least its the starting of the ending of the last chapter. I really wanted to end it ASAP and have a peace of mind. This month marks the 2nd anniversary of my worst nightmare which left a permanent damage of my vision. How time flies... and I am really glad I was able to survive the ordeal. No doubt it caused trauma to my kids and I, but we managed to cross over the line.

Looking back I am glad I made the decision to end the marriage. Dont think I could but now, I am happy being single with the kids. The kids got my undivided attention and my unconditional love.... I really hope my kids would appreciate that.