Sarah is down again....

Sarah had been feeling well for a couple of weeks. It started with her eyes and it lasted for 2 weeks. Yesterday, she had fever. Will be going again to the clinic and have her checked. Zaki is starting his orientation at his college today and this will last for 4 days. I am not taking him there coz I have some things to do. Wish him luck!

Btw Sarah's piano teacher passed away on Friday morning. Sarah has a new teacher and I hope the new teacher will be able to coach Sarah. She is starting on theory so that she can sit for Grade 1 exam in the future.

School break

The school break has come to an end. Did not go anywhere though coz I have classes for students who are in boarding school. Thus, I still enjoyed the holidays but the kids close to me. They had their own plans: swimming, basketball, gym etc. As for Sarah, she is hooked on Chipmunk and Naruto. At least nobody is watching the TV. I had the pleasure of owning the remote control for once..... Bliss!

Starting next week back to same routine; school, classes and kids not at home. Zaki will start his orientation on March 29 and the classes will resume after that. At least he is not far from me.

Been thinking of going away... needed a break, A BIG BREAK! But there are constraints. MONEY for instance. Will work harder after this and perhaps earn a lil bit to go for holiday with the kids. I am looking forward for the months to come as there will be more court hearings not that I like it but at least its the sign of ending, closure....

Praying for the best and I really need to put the past way way back behind me.....

New Beginning

I enrolled Zaki into a private college to do A-levels. Had already set our minds long before the exam. So his results doesnt affect the decision. He will start his class early April and it will be a new beginning for him. Need him to do better and perhaps next year can start his degree programme.

Zaki will be doing English/TESL. Its the only thing that interest him actually. For me, English is a never wrong degree. If he decided to do something else, only after his English degree.

As for, after being evicted and my things thrown away by A, I just want to move on. If that makes him happy and satisfied, I wish him well. I am over it!

Zaki, Zaki.....

Zaki got his results. Not as expected but I am still happy coz at least he tried. He was in great pain during his exam and with his injury, he was not at the best condition. I accepted his results with open mind and hope that he will learn something out of it.

After this, he has to look forward and move on.... Will try to get him into college and hope he will excel.

In the memory of a good friend....

It had been more than 8 months since she left us. Even now still I could not get her out of my system. I can still feel her existence and whenever I passed by her house, I can still see her there.

I have been wanting to write about her but I just could not put my feelings in writing. She is like a big sister to me and second mum to my kids. She got her nickname from Zaki when Zaki was still a toddler. Everyone called her by the name 'Mak Iti' since then.

She took care of Zaid and Sarah during my confinement and helped me through my rough times. She took care of the kids for a month when I went to perform haj in 2002. When I got the call at 6 am on July 3, 2009 infornming that she had passed away due to heart attack, I was devastated. Even the day before, she called me to meet her but I was a bit busy and could not meet her. The next day, she was gone. I could not comprehend and only after I saw her body lying lifeless, then only I believed that she left us.

My kids skipped school and were at the surau together with me. We went to the cemetery and Sarah kept asking why and what had happened. It was very hard explaining to her. Until now, Sarah will still ask me whether Mak Iti is still at the surau whenever we passed by the surau.

Her scarifices for the community at our place would be remembered forever. We still mention her name and felt that she's always around us.

To Allahyarhamah Hajjah Siti Hatijah, we missed you and love you always....

Another sick friend

This is Esther. She is Sarah's piano teacher. She has been teaching Sarah since October 2009 and she is a very patient teacher.

Last Saturday, I received a call from the music centre. They informed me Sarah's class was rescheduled to 11 am. They only informed that Esther couldnt make it for her usual class.

On the way there, I noticed that theres jam at Jln Ampang. I tot there was an accident, I turned to another road and yet still jammed. Finally when I reached the place, I was 10 minutes late. Then only I knew that the roads were closed because of Le Tour de Langkawi....

Sarah's new teacher, a young Chinese girl is a pleasant and also very patient. Then she told me that she would be replacing Esther for good. She later told me that Esther had cancer - stage 4! I was shocked coz she was okay when I met her last week. Esther would always give Sarah some sweets and Sarah is always looking forward for her piano class.

After the class I enquired form the centre's staffs and they confirmed the news. How sad... and suddenly I felt bad. I never had the chance to thank her for what she had done for Sarah. Suddenly I realised that life is short. You will never know whats in store for you.

Here I would like to tell my kids and my friends that I really appreciate all of you. Thank you, all!

Another week to result....

SPM's result will be out next week. Zaki will one the thousands getting his result and now I am now having coooold feet. He is as usual, no worries. I cant expect much from him as he went thru a lot before and during his exam. I just hope that he will get a fair result....

As for the other kids, Zaid's exam will last until tomorrow and Sarah's will start next week. And now I am down with cough and fever. The weather made it worse as the heat and the heavy rain in the evenings.

As a consolation that I am not in the workforce, I am able to rest a bit more and will try to recover from this torturing coughs.....

Semi Retirement

Officially starting from 1st March 2010, I am out of job. In anticipation of Zaki's result coming out, there will be nobody to wait for her at home. As my kids needed me, I resigned. My amanah given by Allah SWT is more important that anything else.

My dear friend La passed away on Saturday nite. I received the news around midnite and could not sleep after that. Its so sad and heart breaking thinking of her kids. I couldn't make it for her funeral as I have a class on Sunday morning. Could not cancel the class at the last minute.

Then come Monday, another friend's wife passed away at Damansara Specialist Hospital. Another heart breaking news. I suppose that day was my busiest day as I have to pick up and send some friends back and forth. I was out from 7.30 am and came back around 8 but it was fulfilling. Eventhough dead tired but I am happy I could meet up with some buddies.

I feel really good knowing that I still friends out there and I really appreciate the supports they have given me.....