Zaki, Zaki.....

Zaki got his results. Not as expected but I am still happy coz at least he tried. He was in great pain during his exam and with his injury, he was not at the best condition. I accepted his results with open mind and hope that he will learn something out of it.

After this, he has to look forward and move on.... Will try to get him into college and hope he will excel.

In the memory of a good friend....

It had been more than 8 months since she left us. Even now still I could not get her out of my system. I can still feel her existence and whenever I passed by her house, I can still see her there.

I have been wanting to write about her but I just could not put my feelings in writing. She is like a big sister to me and second mum to my kids. She got her nickname from Zaki when Zaki was still a toddler. Everyone called her by the name 'Mak Iti' since then.

She took care of Zaid and Sarah during my confinement and helped me through my rough times. She took care of the kids for a month when I went to perform haj in 2002. When I got the call at 6 am on July 3, 2009 infornming that she had passed away due to heart attack, I was devastated. Even the day before, she called me to meet her but I was a bit busy and could not meet her. The next day, she was gone. I could not comprehend and only after I saw her body lying lifeless, then only I believed that she left us.

My kids skipped school and were at the surau together with me. We went to the cemetery and Sarah kept asking why and what had happened. It was very hard explaining to her. Until now, Sarah will still ask me whether Mak Iti is still at the surau whenever we passed by the surau.

Her scarifices for the community at our place would be remembered forever. We still mention her name and felt that she's always around us.

To Allahyarhamah Hajjah Siti Hatijah, we missed you and love you always....

Another sick friend

This is Esther. She is Sarah's piano teacher. She has been teaching Sarah since October 2009 and she is a very patient teacher.

Last Saturday, I received a call from the music centre. They informed me Sarah's class was rescheduled to 11 am. They only informed that Esther couldnt make it for her usual class.

On the way there, I noticed that theres jam at Jln Ampang. I tot there was an accident, I turned to another road and yet still jammed. Finally when I reached the place, I was 10 minutes late. Then only I knew that the roads were closed because of Le Tour de Langkawi....

Sarah's new teacher, a young Chinese girl is a pleasant and also very patient. Then she told me that she would be replacing Esther for good. She later told me that Esther had cancer - stage 4! I was shocked coz she was okay when I met her last week. Esther would always give Sarah some sweets and Sarah is always looking forward for her piano class.

After the class I enquired form the centre's staffs and they confirmed the news. How sad... and suddenly I felt bad. I never had the chance to thank her for what she had done for Sarah. Suddenly I realised that life is short. You will never know whats in store for you.

Here I would like to tell my kids and my friends that I really appreciate all of you. Thank you, all!

Another week to result....

SPM's result will be out next week. Zaki will one the thousands getting his result and now I am now having coooold feet. He is as usual, no worries. I cant expect much from him as he went thru a lot before and during his exam. I just hope that he will get a fair result....

As for the other kids, Zaid's exam will last until tomorrow and Sarah's will start next week. And now I am down with cough and fever. The weather made it worse as the heat and the heavy rain in the evenings.

As a consolation that I am not in the workforce, I am able to rest a bit more and will try to recover from this torturing coughs.....

Semi Retirement

Officially starting from 1st March 2010, I am out of job. In anticipation of Zaki's result coming out, there will be nobody to wait for her at home. As my kids needed me, I resigned. My amanah given by Allah SWT is more important that anything else.

My dear friend La passed away on Saturday nite. I received the news around midnite and could not sleep after that. Its so sad and heart breaking thinking of her kids. I couldn't make it for her funeral as I have a class on Sunday morning. Could not cancel the class at the last minute.

Then come Monday, another friend's wife passed away at Damansara Specialist Hospital. Another heart breaking news. I suppose that day was my busiest day as I have to pick up and send some friends back and forth. I was out from 7.30 am and came back around 8 but it was fulfilling. Eventhough dead tired but I am happy I could meet up with some buddies.

I feel really good knowing that I still friends out there and I really appreciate the supports they have given me.....

A Sad Gathering

My friends and I (almost twenty of us) gathered at a dear friend's house to recite surah Yasen and doa for another friend who still in ICU HKL after a brain surgery. There were tears flowing and exchange stories about our comatose friend.

After that we went to the hospital and visited her. She is a sorry state... Her family were gathering all over the hospital and reciting surah Yasin together. We pray for her recovery but eventually Allah knows better. Her youngest girl is only 8 years old and it broke our hearts to see the kids. She has 7 children and they were all waiting.....

My doa is with her and family..... It kept me thinking actually. Will there be anybody should my time comes? God knows....

A Passing Away...

Remember few weeks ago I was writing about proposal? Today I found that he passed away last Monday. He suffered a heart attack and I was informed by his daughter. I was supposed to meet him last week when he came to KL but according to his daughter, he was not feeling well and rushed home after being in KL for 3 nites only. I thought that he was busy or refused to meet me but maybe he knew about his condition and dont want me to be upset. Should I were to meet him then, I think I would be more devastated now. I am sad as he was very concerned about me and my kids. He always voiced up his worries about us and now I understand why. He even sent me a present for my recent birthday and I will cherish him.

May Allah bless his soul and thank you and goodbye to you Abang. Al-Fatihah....