Sukan Pasti 2010 & Surau Darussalam

It was Sukan Pasti again on July 24th, 2010. After three hard weeks of training, we went to the event with high hopes of winning.... but alas, we lost again. Though, my kids did great! Am proud of them and perhaps better luck next year.

Last weekend was the programme at Surau Darussalam, Taman Nirwana. I helped them organised their programe and it lasted for three wholedays. It went well and I was glad it was over. At least it changed my kids.... Alhamdulillah... the event had some impact on my kids and I really hope it will last for a long time.....

Trip around Johore

I was in Johore last weekend. Took my aunt to her son's house in Pontian. We first stopped at Tangkak. Been wanting to go there but could not find the time. We were there for just under an hour and we shoot off to Pontian. As it is a new place for me, I wanted to reach there during daylight. We reached safely at my cousin's house at 6 pm. We had dinner at the seafood restaurant after that.

The next day, we went to Kahang to visit an uncle. My aunt had never been to his place. I took the liberty to take my aunt around. We had lunch complete with durian and manggis. We then went to Ayer Hitam. Another place I wanted to go after hearing a lot of shopping stories from friends. And after spending an hour, I took my aunt back to Pontian. Shortly before 6 pm, I drove home. There were many vehicles on the road but I managed to reach KL within 3 hours. By 9 pm, I was already home.... Home Sweet Home.

I only planned to go to Pontian but instead I went around Johore. It was tiring but I was happy to entertain my dearest aunt. I really hope she is happy.....

Sarah is 10

Sarah is 10 on July 5, 2010. Had a small party for family and friends on Sunday, July 4th at the poolside. Her brothers prepared the place as I had classes until 2 pm. We had a small gathering and had lots of fun eventhough there were no other children at the party.

The kids are all now in double digits age. And that makes me feel old.... I thank Allah for giving me the kids as they are my only harta dunia and akhirat. I gave up my houses in return for the kids and would do anything to keep them. Come what may, nothing could separate me from my kids now.

Looking back, nobody could guess that my life is better off now. I've gained my weight and I am happier now. Should I know that life would be better, I would jumped into singlehood long time ago. But yet...its never too late!

Syukur Alhamdulillah for all the goodness in life and I look forward for my better years ahead with my kids....

Outing - Genting Highlands June 16, 2010

We took the bus ride to Genting Highlands at 9 am. By 10.30 am, we were already at the Outdoor Theme Park. The weather was cooling and just right. What a relief! Away from the hot weather down in KL. The kids had a jolly time at the park riding the roller-coasters and playing games... I had to buy at least RM130 worth of tokens.... And we came back with a bid red dragon, a green frog and a bear... They all belonged to Sarah. We were carrying those animals back in the bus... We took the 5 pm bus back to KL. By 7 pm, we were already home.

For all I know, we had GREAT FUN together! Eventhough its near to our house but the weather made a lot of difference. It is as though we were overseas! We plan to go again to Genting. Will try to find time so that we can have fun together and can cherish the moments that we have.... Whenever we see the animals we brought back, we can still remember our time there. I love spending time with the kids eventhough I have to cough up money.... They are all worth it!!

Praying for a BIG STOP!

I dont understand why he could not stop harrassing us. First me, then now the kids. Sending lengthy sms to us and provoking us. He kept on blaberring that the kids are not worthy. The thing is he is the one who is not deserving.

I pray that he will stop provoking us. Just face the fact and let us live our lives happily and peacefully. Its been over a year and dont let me blow my top. I can feel my temperature rising and whistling in my ears!

My Lost Feelings

I woke up this morning feeling regret. I dont know what happened in my dream but the feelings were overwhelming. I regretted my actions that I did 21 years ago. It happened in June 1989. Why didnt anyone stopped me from making the worst mistake in my life? How could I be fooled? Why didnt I thought of the consequences?

I am full of regrets. I know nothing could change the past but how I wished I could just turn back the time. I had so much in life happening at that time but I decided to end it just to please another person.. And now I regret.... All I wanted now is to let it go and start a new life, far away from all. Dont want to think what had happened and live life to the fullest.

It would be difficult to start all over again at this age but I will try to put the past behind me and relive my life with whatever thats left and with whoever I want....

Looking forward...

I am looking forward for a better life; not that my current life is not good. As my court date will start end of June, I look forward for the end of the trial. Whatever the outcome, at least its the starting of the ending of the last chapter. I really wanted to end it ASAP and have a peace of mind. This month marks the 2nd anniversary of my worst nightmare which left a permanent damage of my vision. How time flies... and I am really glad I was able to survive the ordeal. No doubt it caused trauma to my kids and I, but we managed to cross over the line.

Looking back I am glad I made the decision to end the marriage. Dont think I could but now, I am happy being single with the kids. The kids got my undivided attention and my unconditional love.... I really hope my kids would appreciate that.