1st Syawal 1431

Its Hari Raya today. Prayed at Darussalam with the kids and then they went with A. This year the kids dressed up for Hari Raya. As long as I can remember, this is the first time they are properly dressed for Hari Raya. I somehow wanted them to remember this Raya eventhough 1st Syawal is never my favourite day.

Tomorrow we will be flying to Singapore for holiday. Since cant think where else to take the kids, we decided to go holidays. Singapore pun Singapore lah... Still overseas... This year my kids received duit raya in Singapore Dollar.... Last year we were there coincide with Formula 1. Perhaps next year I will take them somewhere else. That means I need to save money from now. I hope Allah will murahkan rezeki I and I can spend more for the kids.

Selamat Hari Raya to all...

Another week to Syawal

Almost three weeks of Ramadhan passed and another week to Syawal. I finally recovered from my flu, Alhamdulillah. 1st Syawal marks my second anniversary and honestly, I consider my independence as GOOD. Life had been good and eventhough there were some problems regarding finances, I got help from the Al-Mighty. Also the help from friends kept me going and grounded. No complains about being lonely and my life is full of happenings surrounding my kids.

Last week Sarah and I were in Shah Alam to berbuka puasa with the Sultan Selangor. Sarah received sumbangan Hari Raya from the Sultan. Zaki got his from ADUN and now Zaid is at Shah Alam to receive his from Yayasan. I am happy for them...

We will be going off to Singapore for Hari Raya. As I dont have a kampung and as birthday presents for my boys, Singapore will be a nice treat. We plan to go to Universal Studio and the Night Safari other than shopping at Bugis. The kids loved Singapore and its about the only place I can afford too. Been saving for this trip and I really hope that the kids will appreciate and enjoy their trip.

I was told that A will be getting married next month. Good for him and I wish him happiness...

A Good Feeling

Today marks the 16th day puasa. I was called to buka puasa at the surau and an amazing thing happened. I could not find Zaki there and I thought he went elsewhere. Then when the azan came, I realised that it was Zaki, my dear son. I can feel my Goose pimples when I heard his voice! What a pleasant surprise.... How proud I was at that time and I realised Zaki had move forward....

It made me think that I needed to do something and most of all doa that he will be in iman forever.... Two years down from my singleness, we found our light together. I really hope Zaki will be able to guide the other kids to be better. The elders have faith in him and I am proud to be his mother.... Alhamdulillah....

Ramadhan 2010

Its been a week into Ramadhan, my favourite month actually. I'd always love ramadhan not because of the abundance of food sold but a month whereby my kids will eat together with me. But this year, my boys wanted to be at the surau. After my one month stint at the surau, my boys somehow enjoyed themselves there and had been going for their jemaah prayers and tarawikh there. They even break their fast there! As usual Sarah and I will go only after Maghrib and it also depends on her mood.

Sarah managed to puasa since Day 1. Its been a week and I am glad that she could go thru a week without much complains. Zaid is working at the surau; washing dishes and cleaning up. Zaki joinned the elders for tadarus. What a bless! Alhamdulillah..... Tq to all who had prayed for me and my kids....

The changes in my kids were longed by me.... I always prayed that they would be soleh and solehah kids..... I dont care about what A might think but all that matters now is we are happy together and performing ibadah together. We may not have lots of money but having enough taught us that barakah is more important than the amount.

I am into my second year anniversary for being single and I am enjoying every minute of it. For me to start a new relationship is not my priority. My kids are the utmost important people in my life and wouldnt want to be tied down again.

Now I am formulating a new survival plan for the next two years. As A is not complying to his agreement and promises, I need to restrategise my action plans. I hope my court case would end soon and thus to ease my worries on the uncertainties.

YA ALLAH! Give me strength and patience to go through all.....

Sukan Pasti 2010 & Surau Darussalam

It was Sukan Pasti again on July 24th, 2010. After three hard weeks of training, we went to the event with high hopes of winning.... but alas, we lost again. Though, my kids did great! Am proud of them and perhaps better luck next year.

Last weekend was the programme at Surau Darussalam, Taman Nirwana. I helped them organised their programe and it lasted for three wholedays. It went well and I was glad it was over. At least it changed my kids.... Alhamdulillah... the event had some impact on my kids and I really hope it will last for a long time.....

Trip around Johore

I was in Johore last weekend. Took my aunt to her son's house in Pontian. We first stopped at Tangkak. Been wanting to go there but could not find the time. We were there for just under an hour and we shoot off to Pontian. As it is a new place for me, I wanted to reach there during daylight. We reached safely at my cousin's house at 6 pm. We had dinner at the seafood restaurant after that.

The next day, we went to Kahang to visit an uncle. My aunt had never been to his place. I took the liberty to take my aunt around. We had lunch complete with durian and manggis. We then went to Ayer Hitam. Another place I wanted to go after hearing a lot of shopping stories from friends. And after spending an hour, I took my aunt back to Pontian. Shortly before 6 pm, I drove home. There were many vehicles on the road but I managed to reach KL within 3 hours. By 9 pm, I was already home.... Home Sweet Home.

I only planned to go to Pontian but instead I went around Johore. It was tiring but I was happy to entertain my dearest aunt. I really hope she is happy.....

Sarah is 10

Sarah is 10 on July 5, 2010. Had a small party for family and friends on Sunday, July 4th at the poolside. Her brothers prepared the place as I had classes until 2 pm. We had a small gathering and had lots of fun eventhough there were no other children at the party.

The kids are all now in double digits age. And that makes me feel old.... I thank Allah for giving me the kids as they are my only harta dunia and akhirat. I gave up my houses in return for the kids and would do anything to keep them. Come what may, nothing could separate me from my kids now.

Looking back, nobody could guess that my life is better off now. I've gained my weight and I am happier now. Should I know that life would be better, I would jumped into singlehood long time ago. But yet...its never too late!

Syukur Alhamdulillah for all the goodness in life and I look forward for my better years ahead with my kids....